Wednesday, March 30, 2005

the wreck and ruining

So a few days back I read on a CD liner a thank you to someone for "wounding [their] spirit with their words". "be ruined for the ordinary" Was a quote I read in University.. my memory fails me as to who's it was. And it got me to thinking... when was I first (if ever) so impacted by someone's words, that it touched me to the core and changed me... I'm not talking about taunting children; playground sticks and stones or off-hand comments sent by a bad summer job boss. But where something I've heard was so direct to who I am, so revealing about the world around me... that things stopped, scrambled, and started again with new character to the story.
I can think of maybe two or three instances in my own life where it's happened.
I'm sad that the people who created those moments aren't really a part of my life anymore.
then because it was a CD liner that brought the whole issue up in the first place I started thinking about songs, lyrics, that have ruined me.
No laughing.
thank you.
Grade six, somewhere amidst "worm at the bottom of the garden" , "run terry run" and "go tell aunt Rhoady" we lay our heads on our desks (at the prompting of Miss.Kingsly) and closed our eyes. She put on a cassette and we listened to a story of a lake that never gave up her dead. I spent weeks looking up large boats in the encyclopedia, tearful for the Edmund Fitzgerald.
Grade ten, Boy on a Dolphin "words inside" joined our family collection (as did Skydiggers "just over this mountain" ) suddenly I was out to save the world, cutting beer can holders, banning tuna from our home... (and wondering if Latin music could ever hand and hand with a banjo... )
Second Year Uni, some worship together live mix tape... "we want to see" (a song I previously thought was the cheesiest ever) At the end of the song, the music and band stopped... but the crowd kept going and going... I had visions of crowds of people who truly wanted to see Jesus lifted high... His Name being sung so loudly that NO ONE could help but hear and KNOW the truth... people falling to their knees.... I still get that vision.. and I start to weep.
few months ago, (ok, ok, I'm NOT stalking him, give it up guys) Aengus Finnan "fool's gold" I think it's called "war bride's waltz". Was listening to it. Had to pull over I was crying so hard... the idea of a faithful love....
last month, watched the Man in Black's "hurt" video (twice). Spent the whole night dreaming about the video and hurting people around me....

a peeve

I HATE IT when people commit to blogging... and then don't do it.....
ohhh, wait...
never mind....

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

EmPHAsis more on Party.... than on Tupperwear

yes, yes, the day has nearly arrived, that fateful day wherein I will launch myself into adult-hood by hosting my first (AND ONLY) tupperwear party.
Sadly, I've had to lure some of my friends with the promise of (cheap) wine. I'll just tell them it's wine maybe they'll believe it. ok, probably my landlord won't being as she owns a pub... but maybe I can pay her to keep it a secret.
PRAISE GOD!!! So as many of you know I've been moping around trying to figure out money issues since I returned home... bills need to be paid even if you leave the country for God! I was super excited when I finished my income tax and figured on receiving a fairly substantial chunk-o-dough. So I telefiled (mmm, buttons to be pressed!) and waited expectantly by my mailbox.
and waited
and waited
and waited
and waited....
yes, that's one "waited" for each agonizing week of torture.
I started to think that maybe the mailwoman was afraid of Norty the Wonder Bunny crouched (and ready to pounce) under the mailbox... so I put the gate up again to protect her...
still no little brown e-van-lope.
Today I called my old room-mate in the petes...
My money has been sitting there for two weeks.
I'm skipping the gym tomorrow and driving North for it's retrieval.

Sunday, March 27, 2005

Met a man with a wooden leg named Peg

There are four HUGE swans that moved in on the far side of the harbour last week. I've seen them everyday when I've gone for my walk, but today while I was on the pier, they swam over.
The swan in the lead was swimming like CRAZY but he was lurching along. When they got close (ok, they stopped right in front of me.. I think someone's been feeding them and I was mistaken for the handout person) The one has a wonky foot. He holds it up out of the water when he swims. I was with one of the guys that I support at work, and he was really concerned for this swan! But it was neat the conversation that we were able to have because of it. The fact that it was the fastest swan, and that it tried hard, and had grown up so well despite it's disability... The guy I was with, said as we walked away "I'm strong too, let's walk faster".

Saturday, March 26, 2005


I keep forgetting the way that the valley effects EVERYTHING. If my last post hadn't been eaten, it would support me on that one.
I was zipping into town and it was dusk. I got into town and I had a good half hour of daylight left! Handy; as the landlord took down our christmas lights, making it hard to find the keyhole in the door.

It smells SO good out tonight.
The fresh damp country air... wet medow...
the kind of air you want to go for a walk in,
get cold in,
then snuggle up with someone because of....
I like spring.

Friday, March 25, 2005


I just wrote a long post about what's going on and how I'm doing and what I'm thinking...
and the computer ate it.

Wednesday, March 23, 2005


is it wrong to post comments on your own site?

I had something really important to write today.. and now that I've got two mins to write it... it's gone from my mind.... how sad.

oh, and I've decided to stop with the infauation, some of my friends have been taking it too seriously. The other day one of them was GENUINELY concerned over what my reaction would be if I found out he was dating someone! (A good infatuation-er knows when the object of their infatuation is dating!) Therefore, they withheld the information for fear that I would be devastated...
That said.. I saw his van at the train station today. And he's got a concert on the 1st in PTBO. That's all folks!

Monday, March 21, 2005


it's offical, I recieved the email today.

Joy Bible Camp, Jr. Youth 2005's theme:

Napoleon Dynamite

I'm still not sure if I should go put on my moon boots.. or hide in my locker.

"At Rex Kwan Do, we use the buddy system. No more flying solo. You need somebody watching your back at all times. Second off, you're gonna learn to discipline your image. You think I got where I am today because I dressed like Peter Pan over here?"

Thursday, March 17, 2005

quips from the frontline

Hold tight, these are actual things that were said to me today...

Refreshed means being re-freshed, did you know that?

(in following a van taxi.. the name "van taxi" is printed ALL over it) Oh, would you look at that, it's some kind of taxi...van... a wow... I've never seen anything like that before.

I bet that was pretty nice of me to colour you that picture don't you think?

(and my personal favorite)
I'm taking a social skills class, a socializing skills class. We watch movies.
Everybody likes to have skills. Skills are important to have. Nutritional skills, math skills... we have math review right now... it's like reviewing math, but it's math review. We add and review.

Monday, March 14, 2005


that song was on in my car again....

Here I am just a man, one of oh so many
with coin in hand, at this old wishing well
and I don’t know if I believe in making wishes
but something has me saying, “only time will tell”

So, I wish I was a breeze in summer
I’d wrap around you, I’d dance in your hair
and if for a moment you should chance to breathe me
I’d carry your voice ‘til it filled the air

Lately skies have me thinking about you
on open roads I hear your voice, I have to turn
not one face or story, not one single song of glory
has ever won back my heart from you....

(taken from “Lately”
Anegus Finnan)

Sunday, March 13, 2005

and the winner is....

big congrats to the Hawk Boys on winning "best new band of the year" at the Jesus Freak Awards.... yeah for you Daniel!
Very cool

Know how sometimes you wake up in the morning with a song stuck in your head... then you get in your car and it's playing there... you just KNOW it's going to be a great day?
Still trying to figure out if it's going to be one of those days.

Saturday, March 12, 2005

evening snack

manda just made me a bowl of cauliflower for snack.....

remember to stir IN the margerine
it tastes better that way...
like water

Friday, March 11, 2005

more fingers

well, sort of.
Not that I am now the owner of more fingers, just more feeling in the last damaged finger.
BUT let me draw attention to a certain staff at house 1 who just so happens to be my nemesis at bowling. WHO I may add (again) I beat last week despite the aforementioned injury to my middle finger (oh yes, I said it, my MIDDLE-bowling-ball-steering-finger).
It appears that he too, has squished his fingers. And though I was unable to attend the evening's events... I heard tell that he refused to bowl.

Bartlett pears are on sale at No Frills this week... mmmm, my favorite.

Sunday, March 06, 2005

RGM Concert

I just went for a nice walk on the beach. it's sad that there was no one there... I guess the ice keeps people away.
I sat for awhile on one of the benches and just listened to the waves hitting the ice. It was so peaceful. I could have stayed there all night.
Last night was the "Remembering Gene MacLellan" concert. David Sheff put it on, it was really, really good.
I was dubbed "culturally illiterate" by David prior to that evening, but I think one of my favorite things was that nearly all the performers admitted to not knowing who Gene was before Dave approached them with the concept. (Gene wrote greats such as "snowbird" "put your hand in the hand" and "the call") (yeah, I had no idea...)
There was some serious talent there... Ian and Cara Jack (my new favorites) Al Kirby, Jim Yates, Ted Staunton (Port Hope hero, and story book writer, Derrick Ballard and "Northumberland Idol" Brittany Armstrong ... oh, and pretty much the entire Sheffield family.
During the coffee break Beth glances over and says "did you see who came?" I look up in time to see Aengus sauntering over to us. (anything underlined is a link guys) I blush, turn stupid and am unable to utter another syllable for the remainder of the evening. Beth launches into a conversation with him about the coming folk festival and how it WILL be different. I consider kicking her or planting my elbow in her ribs in order to be introduced... but fade into the background instead when David joins into the conversation. Spend the rest of the evening trying to find a break in which to say something ANYTHING (volunteer for the valley Fest?)... the moment arrives... and passes... I just smile at him instead.
Other than my freakazoidness... I had a great time, and I'm developing a great love for banjos.

Saturday, March 05, 2005

Stuck in the Desert

Originally uploaded by L. Bo.
as promised a while back...he who sent harmattan ;)
hey AJ, I hope it's ok that I used one of your pictures!

rainy season mountan

Originally uploaded by L. Bo.
Well, finally some pictures that capture Harmattan... remember back? I think somewhere in December or maybe November I was telling you about the dusty dry season.... Anyway, this first picture was taken during the rainy season, everything is nice and lush. Dry season starts and the Harmattan dust blows in from the sahara... yuck.

harmattan mountain

Originally uploaded by L. Bo.
This would be the after shot of the mountain.
pretty sick eh?
It's all dust, not fog, not smoke (everything that can be burned was burned back in December/January)
Hey you Friesen Family, I hope you're wearing dust masks!

Thursday, March 03, 2005

stan the man

Flat Stanley and I are going to go return to his friends in Ptbo this weekend. Stanley reports that he's awfully excited to get back home after his long and ardious journey to Togo. I think I have him fooled. I told him before we left that it was going to be a really REALLY long trip back to Canada.
He's been in my suitcase since then.
I think I'll tell him we were sent by crate- shipping.
That should do the trick.

Cobourg 7 bowling report:

(let the gloating continue)

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

9 fingers 10 toes

today marks the first day that I have full feeling in my ring-finger (see post feb.18)... I'm still holding on that the middle will have feeling sometime soon. I find that I'm spending alot of time using the spell checker, because my digits haven't been co-operating!

speaking of ring fingers, congrats to Julie and Conrad!!!! May 6th is the big day. Now, to find my date.....