Saturday, December 24, 2005

green and red and snow and tears

Merry Christmas

I don't know what I'm suppose to be feeling anymore.

Bah! Just when I think I have things all together I don't.

Christmas is this time of celebration.. of rejoicing in the birth of our savior... of joy with friends and family, of giving and eating and all those things that make this time of year amazing.
I love Christmas.
And, I miss my mom. and so I feel jealous and selfish and self absorbed.... and grumpy and then because of allowing myself to feel like that... I feel guilty, oh bother... *whew*! Sorry to be so frank... just wanted you to know where I was at.

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